and you want to shout // teddy

Only a few days ago, he would have seen Lily off to school for her final year. Almost twice weeks had passed since she had been taken. Someone had kidnapped her only a month after Harry had been killed. The two did not talk or even write to each other since the day that he had told her about Harry's death. She blamed him for not preventing it. The last memory of them was a fight. The owl that he had wished to be their final memory together was not even real. It was the two talking about her going to Hogwarts except it wasn't real. Instead the two were left with a memory of not being on the best of terms. Rose had asked if he would stop over when he had sent a owl to her, asking for them to meet up. Outside of the Potters, Rose was the Weasley that he got along with the best. They were like brother and sister, similar to how his relationship was with the others. Teddy had told her that he could make it later in the day as he had plans for the earlier half of the day. Since Lily had gone missing, he had been going out and looking for her. Anything that could have possibly led him to her, he was doing. James and Scorpius were too caught up bickering that their searches appeared to lack the effort that Teddy expected to see more out of James.

Despite them not leaving things on the best of terms, he was still looking for her. To anyone, it would have appeared as an obsession. That he had to find her. Some nights, he didn't even sleep since he was out looking for her. Out of the Potters, he considered Lily to be the one that he got along best with. Their age difference was bigger than a lot of the other Weasleys and Potters though they had always gotten along. It also made sense that he got along with her best since her and Rose were real close. He arrived at Rose's place, much later than he intended. In fact, it was the next morning despite him saying that he was to show up the night before. He had written an owl asking her to change the plans to the following day before she had to go into work later in the day. Teddy knocked on the door of her place, waiting for her to answer the door. He expected the temper to show through. It was to be expected when dealing with Molly, Rose, or Lily.

If there was one flaw that one of the eldest children of the Order children had, it was dealing with grief. He was horrible at it. Teddy could have played off being completely fine in front of anyone though deep down he was beating himself up over the situation. It had shown itself when Andromeda had died, it was showing since Harry had been murdered. If anything kept him together entirely, it was the fact that he had a big support system in the Potters and Weasleys. They were all there for him when Andromeda had passed though this time was much different. Everyone had been grieving since Harry had been killed. With the disappearance of Lily, there was a sense of panic amongst some of the family members. Especially the older family members, who had seen so much terror in the years preceding the battle of Hogwarts. With everything falling apart, some people had to wonder what else would happen. For now though, he had one of the three red headed women to deal with. Only three red headed women scared him when they let their temper show.

When she opened the door, she greeted him in a light voice. Since they had known each other since she was a baby, he knew she wasn't pleased at all with him. He said, "Hey Rose" as she started heading to the living room. She called out to him close the door which he did. Following her into the living room, he said, "Before you find a way to rip me apart, I was looking for Lily, thats why I'm very late." Sitting down on the couch, he put his feet up on the coffee table. Teddy knew that it would bother her though he did it on purpose. He liked testing what he could and couldn't do around the women and their tempers. The posture that he held was that he was making himself comfortable by leaning back on the couch with his feet on the coffee table. How long that posture would last? Probably not long.

Harry's death had been hard on Teddy considering he had been there. He had seen it happen and felt at times that it was his fault. That he could have prevented it. When Harry had died, Lily had spent the night at his home since it had felt to her that she could see her father anywhere in the family's house. The two had shared a kiss, something that he hadn't told anyone since it wasn't a subject that came up. Grief was affecting the family too much, the news of a kiss would have made the weeks harder on an individual in the family. Victoire. On that night, he had promised that he would have caught the bloody bastard that had killed Harry. He hadn't held up to that promise before more tragedy had struck the family. Lily went missing about a week ago and it was because he hadn't managed to live up to his promise. It was difficult to find someone that you never saw the true identity of. Whoever had killed Harry was either using polyjuice potion or a metamorphmagus. With everything that was going on, he had put finding Lily before anything else. Including allowing it to delay his plans with Rose. Removing his feet from the coffee table, he said, "I couldn't exactly send an owl in the middle of looking for someone. I'm sorry, Rose. It's just been difficult lately." No one said dealing with an older brother figure was easy.

When he had said that it was hard for him to send a owl, she had snapped right back at him. Some had to question that if they hadn't grown up together, would they have gotten along? Her temper was perhaps worse than Lily's due to the fact that her mother was Hermione. He said, "I'll stop and write a letter, while someone could potentially hit me with a spell.." The two usually got along though had their disagreements. It was to be expected since things had been a bit chaotic. She had went to the kitchen without asking him, if he wanted anything. Not something that he expected to be asked since she was already mad. When she came back, she brought up the belief of family, something Harry and Andromeda had both instilled in him. Sitting up, he said, "You don't think I'm following that belief by trying to find his daughter?" There was a bit of anger in his voice as he said that, his voice a bit raised. If anyone could have used a time turner, they would have seen a similar scene with Harry and Remus, that had been about the same idea. Teddy had been told about what had happened between his godfather and father, something that had helped him realize that family was important. However, looking for Lily counted as something towards that belief. Perhaps what was making them so argumentative was the fact that the both of them were trying to appear fine.